arghh!! How do i describe this? to put it into words...ITS A TOTAL BORE!! today(that is the day i post this) is only the second day but we can't stand it anymore! no, they don't torture us, or make us do pumping or whatever..but all they do is give us lectures! god...its really one lecture after another! heaven knows how i wish to trade all that for exercises! oh damn, gtg...another damn lecture!

A new life....

In just a few more days, this 5-months hoidays is going to end...yup, i'm gonna go for matrikualasi in Tangkak, Johor on the 10th of May. omg, just thinking about it scares me!!! I mean, look at it, Johor??? Thats almost a 9 hour+ trip by car!!!! How come I didn't get someplace nearer to home, like some of my friends who got Penang(only 1 hour drive...UNFAIR!!!)? Besides, I wonder whether I will be able to cope with the strenoues studies in matrix especially after almost half a year of non-studying. It's almost as if I'm starting a new life, damn it!!

Anyways, that ain't the only problem...what should i bring there?? I seriously have no idea...personal suff, bathing and eating utensils, clothes....what else?? Somebody help me here!! I've been trying to get a few tips from a few seniors in Kolej Matrikulasi Johor whom i got to know through facebook but they have not settled my problems at all!! If anything, they seem to add on to my already aching head!! gah!!!

So....anyone with any help for me?? But please, don't tel to mto take Panadol...XD

JPA interview

okay, so most probably all of you have heard about this...well, mine was on the 5th of April, the first day of the interview(kinda scary actually, coz you don't have anyone to refer to yet!) I arrrived there at 1pm, quite early i thought but to my surprise, there were quite a number of the other fellows there. Then just go over to the list on the wall and signed my name there(not that important actually, coz they don;t even look at it!!) The wait there was pretty boring, due to the circumstance I was in, where none of my closer friends are on the same day as mine. Finally, at 2pm, they called us in for the interview. Had to register one more time(now THIS is important!) before we were seated in the waiting room. It was after that only I noticed that there are 3 different panels of interviewers and each panel has to interview 22 applicants!! We were then grouped into groups of 6 according to our birthday(Mine is on 30th of Nov, so naturally I was in the last group...oh and I got panel 2) Anyways, the first group of each panel went for the interviews looking happy and calm. Imagine the fright we got when they came back from the interview about 40 minutes later looking as though they have just seen a ghost!!(I exaggerate a little, so please bear with me xD) It was through the first group that we got to know about the interviewers. Panel 1 was the worse, I heard, as they have one interviewer who is always, well, debating with you. Whatever you mention, he will find something to fight back! Panel 2(my panel!) was the most docile, as they just ask you and then they let u answer without any interruption and stuffs. While panel 3...honestly, I know nothing about panel 3, except that both interviewers are doctors, so sorry about that. Well, come my group's turn, my legs were turning into jelly, my heart was racing at 120 beats/min, I had butterflies in my stomach...OMG! So, we started off with introducing ourselves. In this section, put in all details of yourself, your family, your chosen career, where you want to further your studies and why you choose the place. Mine was in BI but another friend of mine was in BM, so prepare yourself for both. The next part would be the 2 questions that is one is in BM, one is in BI. If they ask in BM, answer in Bm andvice versa. Answer these calmly, DON'T panic, just remember, they are not judging whether you comitted a crime or not, but they are there to help you to get the scholarship. Some of the questions asked today are as below(either in BM or BI):

1. Explain about the  principles of One Malaysia
2. If you were given a chance, how would you run a hospittal?
3. Please describe your experience at the Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor(If you opt for     medicine)
4. The government has made it compulsory for MO's after housemanship to be placed in rural areas for 2 years. What is your opinion on this?
5. Tell us about the current diseases in Malaysia.

That's all I know right now. Oh, at the end of this, they will ask you whether you have any questions to ask. DO NOT ask questions regarding the bond or anything to do with coming back to work with Malaysia. It will only show that you are not interested in working in  Malaysia. Then say thank you, and HOLA! ITS OVER!! GOOD LUCK!! hope my blog helps a little!XD

PPKSD 3RD DAY

Well, today our group had to visit the A&E or also known as the Accidents and Emergency Department. What we had in mind before actually going there was that it would be as busy as anything, with bleeding, groaning patients here and there(if you watch ER or any TVB hospital drama, you will get my drift). Anyways, before we actually went into the A&E Department, we were given a looooooooooooooong lecture about the department by a certain Mr. Koe, the MA(Medical Assistant) for the department. I, for one, couldn't take it as I keep nodding off whenever and wherever there is a lecture(my close friends should be accustomed to this peculiar behavior of mine of mine by now...xD) Well, that boring part lasted for about 30 agonising, head-nodding minutes before we were actually brought to the place itself. Lo and behold, there it is, the famed place foe screams and tears in a hospital(again, watch ER!!!) How disappointed we were to see that the place was quite empty apart from the Medical Officers and the housemen there. Fortunately, we met this really really friendly Medical Officer, Dr. Kelvin(Ironic!!!xD) The moment he saw us in the A&E, he shouted in a friendly manner,"Out of hundreds of jobs in the world, you guys opt to be a doctor!!! If you want a life, don't be a doctor. If you want a wife, don't be a doctor. If you want to have a nice house and a nice car, don't be a doctor." What a nice reception for us er...future doctors!! He then jokingly added to his friend, " If I knew this was the life I was going to have 6,7 years ago, I would have gone for other jobs!!" Stunned to the core, we then asked him about his views about being a doctor. He then stressed that life as a doctor is mainly a very stressful thing to do, what with the responsibilities and the fact that politics play a very important part in the management of the hospital(now now...this I really can't elaborate...very sensitive issue here....xD) He was being a very truthful doc and I really respected him for it.(I couldn't help comparing him with the OTHER Kelvin that I know, whom right now, is actually studying to be a doctor...xD)

So, that was basically what we did for the day.(Well, we did see a few patients, but they are just so not worth mentioning) So, for those of you out there who actually wants to be a doctor, think and think and think before you actually commit yourself to it as this career would last for the rest of your life!!...or until you resign one day...xD

PPKSD 1st@2nd day.

PPKSD= Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor or in English: Exposure to a Doctor's Career Programme is a pragramme organised by the JPA(Jabatan Perkhidamatan Awam) for those who applied for the course of medicine in the JPA scholarship. It's main purpose is for the applicants to experience themselves firsthand  of being a doctor while at the samt time allowing us to evaluate whether or not being a doctor is suitable for us. I was placed in the Hospital Sultan Abdul Halim, Sungai Petani with quite a few of schoolmates(17 of them!!!). Couldn't believe there's so many Ibrahimians who wants to be doctors. It was during the briefing on the first day that I found out that the competition is superbly high.(55 students in my hospital alone, while there are around 000 applicants nationwide!!). Anyways, we were then grouped into 5 grops. Fortunately, I was in group 4 which has another 5 of my schoolmates.( Jason, When Yee, Eileen, Ravind, Zcho Huey) Our group's destination for the first day was the Forensics and Pathology. Suddenly everyone, especially Jason has goosebumps about seeing cadavers and stuffs. Luckily(NOT!!), there weren't any cadavers around except one new body which just came in from Hospital Pantai(previously known as the Strand Hospital). According to the Medical Assisstant, the feller is an old woman who passed on due to complications during surgery. Well, of course we did other things, but that would be the most interesting part of the first day(HOW BORING!!!).

 On the second day, our group had to go to the orthopedics department. Everybody's mind was filled with images of bones sticking out of patients or stuffs like that(I know I know...we are sadistic, aren't we??). Imagine our disappointment when the worse case we could see was just a broken leg and stuff. DAMN!!! Anyways, we were then left to our own by the very very helpful(NOT!!) Sister Lim, the Head Nurse of the department as she had to go do rounds with the housemen. There we were, standing in the middle of the ward, doing nothing and all the doctors ignoring us(not to mention looking at us as if we were invisible!!). How embarrassed we were during that time!!! Zcho Huey embarrassed us even further when she actually asked a doctor to uh..talk to us but he said he was too busy to mind us(Well...she was brave, kudos to her for that!!) Then, somebody suggested that we go to the orthopedic clinic for a few minutes. Holy Cow!! We striked gold here!! We actually found ourselves looking at a case of gangrene(dead tissues in laymen terms) due to  diabetic wound. The nurse told us that the patient had quite severe diabetes to the point that he has very little feeling in his left leg. And there she was, cutting of the patient's dead tissues in his foot. Oh, did I mention that his foot was missing 3 toes?? His foot was cut open to the extent that we could see his healthy tissues(res) and his dead tissues(yellow, like your typical er...nanah) God, no words can describe that image...ask any of us, we shall remember it til the end of our lives!!!! Too bad we weren;t allowed to take photos( I doubt anyone would dare to even if allowed!!). And so, that would be the end of our second day.   

sobs...

yes...if any of u out there are wondering...yes, dats me crying..."why??" u ask...

ok...firstly, u may find my reply childeish o mayb even stupis n ridiculous...but its coz i  reli reli RELI mis my skul, my frnds, da teachers, environment...da shouting, da punishments, da blabbering...hw i hated it whn i was at skul, but nw, having a first hand chance of actually working, i find dat its nthg. at least v hv al our frnds nearby to support us n stuff...

okay, yes, i did hv a little argument with my vry vry gud frnds(ok fine...its not small..its BIG!!) aina, kel, bert, jace...n den adrian pulak went wit dem, dint bother bout me...still, aftr da argument(it lasted 6 MONTHS!!) v gt bck okay...me n bert, aina n jace were back to normal...howevr me n kel on da othr hand...well, our frndship bcame sort of formal, no longer close(considering v r frnds aftr 2 BIG arguments, one in 2008, one last yr, im fortunate to still hv him as a frnd).

well, aftr all dat yrs of bonding, comes 2010 n thus, starts a new lyf for me...it reli hurts me deeply to admit it, but im starting to drift away frm my frmds(even my closest best frnd, adrian!) often i ask myslf whether i will bcome lyk my prnts, only meeting their close frnds for once a yr n feeling vry awkward during dat meeting, ot perhaps having a lyf WITH my frnds, being with them. perhaps even staying close to each othr!! hell, dat would be soooooooooo nice, dun u tink??but i hv to cme bck to reality at dis point, will my frnds want dat lyf?? or mayb dey dun reli lyk me n jz want to get away n 4gt dat da name malvin lee yee hen ever existed in their lyf?? hell, i dunno....on one hand, i feel happy for dem(studying, getting a scholarship n stuff) but on da othr, sadness creeps into my heart whn i realise dat dey will probably b forevr lost frm my lyf...sometimes i do wonder whethr da old chinese saying is truen which goes" if the old ones doesn't go, hw cn new ones cme?"

anyways, to those hu r studying or getting a scholarship, gud luck n congrats. to those hu r working alone without frnds, i tink u would undrstand hw i feel...da pain n stuff...for nw, i shall hold on...making sure my empty heart holds intact, but i dunno hw much longer i cn hold da pieces of my heart together...for da glue holding dem intact is da glue beetween me n my frnds, which i believe n i knw, is getting weaker by da second...

money IS IMPORTANT!!!

yeah!! money is important!! jz found out dis morning...da hard way...thing is, i gotta cycle frm my hse to outside of my erm...housing area to get a bus to work(dat is arnd 6km...if u follow my previous blog, u ought to knw by nw) well, today i did da same...after cycling 6km, only did i realise dat i forgot to bring any money with me...HW AM I GOING TO GET A RIDE TO WORK????n so, i had to cycle back another 6km just to get my money...at last, i jz decided to call in sick for da day!!cheers!^^

a really TIRING experience

woke up so late today!! omg, skipped breakfast...rushed my usual long bath(my bath usually last 30 minutes!!) , then quickly went to work...reached there at 11AM!!(supposed to be 10.30) only then did i find that...damn, my shop's not yet open!!! so, the heck with it, took 2 buns for my brkfast n lunch(or brunch as some call it)

at 2.15pm, suddenly my boss told me,"kam tiam!!"( dats close da shop in hokkien) bewildered, i tried to reconfirm wad i heard only to get chided for not obeying him...still bewildered, i closed da shop as othr shop owners looked on. As my boss, oh he is mr lee( ya, same surname as me, ironic huh?) took out a few laptops, i began thinking,"oh shit, our shop is bankrupt or smthg??" it was when he asked me n a fellow colleague to rearrange da tables in da shop dat da true purpose dawned on me...v r renovating our shop!!^^

da both of us quickly did our job with vigour but soon lost our esctasy for it(da tables are HEAVY!!!) not only that, da shop's carpeted floor looks lyk...well, no words can describe it!! ever seen a rubbish dump?? well, it was one tenth of da aforementioned rubbish dump!! urgh...it was horrible!! v swept, vacuumed, n cleaned da floor with our BARE HANDS!! before long, i had hands belonging to an alien!!(yeah...it was THAT bad)

by the time we finished our job, it was already 7pm...at dat tym, i was feeling so tired, i could barely walk!!(remember, i only ate 2 buns for brunch!!) thank god i had yet to take a break!! well, i took a break, ate sme real solid food, watched tv at da coffee shop...n den went back for more tiring stuff!! at da end of the day..well...my body ached all over!!!^^

from a hero to a zero..

yztrday, i had to go to work as a salesman for a computer shop, Ramdac System sdn. bhd., a company i have worked for for a about 15 days... anyways, it was so boring for da first few hours...NO CUSTOMERS!!! perhaps bcoz it is a weekday?? or there is a new celebration in town that i didn't know about??? thank god customers started to trickle in in the afternoon...it was during this time that i received a message from a friend of mine who told me to check my mail for any news regarding my online assessment result for the Yayasan Sime Darby. As i was working, i couldn't go on9 at dat tym, i had no choice but to ask my gud frnd, lim aina, to help me chck my mail...the 10 minutes that passed before i got her reply was really really agonising, i couldn't remember to do stuff properly, i couldn't remember any specifications for the laptops correctly,etc etc...then she told me that...no email has been sent to my inbox...relief washed over me!!(you may find it weird at this point, but it's bcoz whether i fail or pass, i will be notified my mail) back to work!!

I managed to sell 2 laptops before suddenly receiving another call from my mum saying that i failed to pass the assessment test. confused, i asked her whether i got the mail n she replied in the affirmative. I have failed...damn!! there goes my hope for yet amnothder scholarship!!!

a BIG relief!!

fuh...jz oni gt bck frm my driving...da teacher was nice...his name was...i cnt reli gt his name, but i guess its encik mat saad(LOL!! remember, anyone??) anyways, bck to my topic. I started with jz testing my clutching skills n stuff...did quite okay(although da first few times da engine stopped!!) den all of a sudden he said, "jom, pi jaln raya besar!!) Imagine my reaction to dat!! vry nearly got into da back of a really shiny honda accord!! OMG!(i panicked n mistaked da acceleration pedal for da brake!!) later, he asked me to do parking, did quite okay there(okay in da sense dat i didn't collide with any of the sidewalks!!) n den came da real test!!BUKIT!! heard its a nightmare frm my frnds...anyways, there i was, sweating in da car...and now da clutches, into gear 1, accelerate...stop!! pull handbrake, still in gear 1...accelerate without da car moving, let go da handbrakes, and...WOOSH!!! down i go!!...backwards...LOL!! dat was my first failure...my instructor, mat saad jz smiled n said,"biasa je!! first tym!!" 2nd tym...repeat da steps...n ...yay!! i did it!!! n with dat, kept doing parking n bukit for da rest of da tym...no more failures1! nice!!

first post

lol...dis isn't my first post actually....had a blog which i forgot da addressn password...lol...anyways, welcome to criticise me or anything in my blog!!^^