sobs...

yes...if any of u out there are wondering...yes, dats me crying..."why??" u ask...

ok...firstly, u may find my reply childeish o mayb even stupis n ridiculous...but its coz i  reli reli RELI mis my skul, my frnds, da teachers, environment...da shouting, da punishments, da blabbering...hw i hated it whn i was at skul, but nw, having a first hand chance of actually working, i find dat its nthg. at least v hv al our frnds nearby to support us n stuff...

okay, yes, i did hv a little argument with my vry vry gud frnds(ok fine...its not small..its BIG!!) aina, kel, bert, jace...n den adrian pulak went wit dem, dint bother bout me...still, aftr da argument(it lasted 6 MONTHS!!) v gt bck okay...me n bert, aina n jace were back to normal...howevr me n kel on da othr hand...well, our frndship bcame sort of formal, no longer close(considering v r frnds aftr 2 BIG arguments, one in 2008, one last yr, im fortunate to still hv him as a frnd).

well, aftr all dat yrs of bonding, comes 2010 n thus, starts a new lyf for me...it reli hurts me deeply to admit it, but im starting to drift away frm my frmds(even my closest best frnd, adrian!) often i ask myslf whether i will bcome lyk my prnts, only meeting their close frnds for once a yr n feeling vry awkward during dat meeting, ot perhaps having a lyf WITH my frnds, being with them. perhaps even staying close to each othr!! hell, dat would be soooooooooo nice, dun u tink??but i hv to cme bck to reality at dis point, will my frnds want dat lyf?? or mayb dey dun reli lyk me n jz want to get away n 4gt dat da name malvin lee yee hen ever existed in their lyf?? hell, i dunno....on one hand, i feel happy for dem(studying, getting a scholarship n stuff) but on da othr, sadness creeps into my heart whn i realise dat dey will probably b forevr lost frm my lyf...sometimes i do wonder whethr da old chinese saying is truen which goes" if the old ones doesn't go, hw cn new ones cme?"

anyways, to those hu r studying or getting a scholarship, gud luck n congrats. to those hu r working alone without frnds, i tink u would undrstand hw i feel...da pain n stuff...for nw, i shall hold on...making sure my empty heart holds intact, but i dunno hw much longer i cn hold da pieces of my heart together...for da glue holding dem intact is da glue beetween me n my frnds, which i believe n i knw, is getting weaker by da second...

money IS IMPORTANT!!!

yeah!! money is important!! jz found out dis morning...da hard way...thing is, i gotta cycle frm my hse to outside of my erm...housing area to get a bus to work(dat is arnd 6km...if u follow my previous blog, u ought to knw by nw) well, today i did da same...after cycling 6km, only did i realise dat i forgot to bring any money with me...HW AM I GOING TO GET A RIDE TO WORK????n so, i had to cycle back another 6km just to get my money...at last, i jz decided to call in sick for da day!!cheers!^^

a really TIRING experience

woke up so late today!! omg, skipped breakfast...rushed my usual long bath(my bath usually last 30 minutes!!) , then quickly went to work...reached there at 11AM!!(supposed to be 10.30) only then did i find that...damn, my shop's not yet open!!! so, the heck with it, took 2 buns for my brkfast n lunch(or brunch as some call it)

at 2.15pm, suddenly my boss told me,"kam tiam!!"( dats close da shop in hokkien) bewildered, i tried to reconfirm wad i heard only to get chided for not obeying him...still bewildered, i closed da shop as othr shop owners looked on. As my boss, oh he is mr lee( ya, same surname as me, ironic huh?) took out a few laptops, i began thinking,"oh shit, our shop is bankrupt or smthg??" it was when he asked me n a fellow colleague to rearrange da tables in da shop dat da true purpose dawned on me...v r renovating our shop!!^^

da both of us quickly did our job with vigour but soon lost our esctasy for it(da tables are HEAVY!!!) not only that, da shop's carpeted floor looks lyk...well, no words can describe it!! ever seen a rubbish dump?? well, it was one tenth of da aforementioned rubbish dump!! urgh...it was horrible!! v swept, vacuumed, n cleaned da floor with our BARE HANDS!! before long, i had hands belonging to an alien!!(yeah...it was THAT bad)

by the time we finished our job, it was already 7pm...at dat tym, i was feeling so tired, i could barely walk!!(remember, i only ate 2 buns for brunch!!) thank god i had yet to take a break!! well, i took a break, ate sme real solid food, watched tv at da coffee shop...n den went back for more tiring stuff!! at da end of the day..well...my body ached all over!!!^^

from a hero to a zero..

yztrday, i had to go to work as a salesman for a computer shop, Ramdac System sdn. bhd., a company i have worked for for a about 15 days... anyways, it was so boring for da first few hours...NO CUSTOMERS!!! perhaps bcoz it is a weekday?? or there is a new celebration in town that i didn't know about??? thank god customers started to trickle in in the afternoon...it was during this time that i received a message from a friend of mine who told me to check my mail for any news regarding my online assessment result for the Yayasan Sime Darby. As i was working, i couldn't go on9 at dat tym, i had no choice but to ask my gud frnd, lim aina, to help me chck my mail...the 10 minutes that passed before i got her reply was really really agonising, i couldn't remember to do stuff properly, i couldn't remember any specifications for the laptops correctly,etc etc...then she told me that...no email has been sent to my inbox...relief washed over me!!(you may find it weird at this point, but it's bcoz whether i fail or pass, i will be notified my mail) back to work!!

I managed to sell 2 laptops before suddenly receiving another call from my mum saying that i failed to pass the assessment test. confused, i asked her whether i got the mail n she replied in the affirmative. I have failed...damn!! there goes my hope for yet amnothder scholarship!!!

a BIG relief!!

fuh...jz oni gt bck frm my driving...da teacher was nice...his name was...i cnt reli gt his name, but i guess its encik mat saad(LOL!! remember, anyone??) anyways, bck to my topic. I started with jz testing my clutching skills n stuff...did quite okay(although da first few times da engine stopped!!) den all of a sudden he said, "jom, pi jaln raya besar!!) Imagine my reaction to dat!! vry nearly got into da back of a really shiny honda accord!! OMG!(i panicked n mistaked da acceleration pedal for da brake!!) later, he asked me to do parking, did quite okay there(okay in da sense dat i didn't collide with any of the sidewalks!!) n den came da real test!!BUKIT!! heard its a nightmare frm my frnds...anyways, there i was, sweating in da car...and now da clutches, into gear 1, accelerate...stop!! pull handbrake, still in gear 1...accelerate without da car moving, let go da handbrakes, and...WOOSH!!! down i go!!...backwards...LOL!! dat was my first failure...my instructor, mat saad jz smiled n said,"biasa je!! first tym!!" 2nd tym...repeat da steps...n ...yay!! i did it!!! n with dat, kept doing parking n bukit for da rest of da tym...no more failures1! nice!!

first post

lol...dis isn't my first post actually....had a blog which i forgot da addressn password...lol...anyways, welcome to criticise me or anything in my blog!!^^